rushing to conclusions

the vernacular conjugation of one joshua conti

a vision for two thousand thirteen.

“I think as photographers we get in a rhythm of playing by rules that were written by others. I feel this applies to life as well. To live by rules that were created by others we may never find out who we really are.” -Ian Ruhter

Find a new angle. Find a new perspective. These two thoughts come to mind when i review all the pictures I’ve shot over this past year. I think this is my heart telling me these things. I haven’t listened to my heart alot this last year. More so listened to everyone around me instead. I’m glad I’ve noticed this before 2013 comes into view.

So what is my vision for 2013? I think for me, that in 2013, its going to be the year that I simply just give up on trying to follow the norm, the rules and follow my heart instead.  I don’t know what this all means yet for me, my family, my job and my life but I do know it means change. And change is the only constant. If I don’t change my life now, life will change my now for me.

In postscript, I also am setting a vision for my love of photography. It is quite simple: The evil in our world seeks to permanently cover up the good in our world. Find the good. Uncover it. Make it known. No longer will it just be something fun to make side money with or just take pictures with, it will be a tool I use to tell the story of good in the world.

-Joshua on December nineteenth, two thousand and twelve



look for the helpers.

“When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, “Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.” To this day, especially in times of “disaster,” I remember my mother’s words and I am always comforted by realizing that there are still so many helpers – so many caring people in this world.” -Fred Rogers

a master of professional amateur-ness.

“Amateurs worry about equipment, professionals worry about time, masters worry about light.” – Anonymous

I worry about all three. But light the most.

take five.

“There’s a way of playing safe, there’s a way of using tricks and there’s the way I like to play which is dangerously where you’re going to take a chance on making mistakes in order to create something you haven’t created before.” -Dave Brubeck

Today, my greatest musical hero, the man who made me fall in love with jazz music has passed. Rest in peace, Mr Brubeck. Your music lives on in my heart.

dread nothing.

“Sometimes the only way to obtain the thing you want is by diving into the thing you dread.”  -Steven Furtick

This is now my motto.

Time to be honest with myself and others. Time to embrace my failures and my struggles. Time to get going and do.

There is alot I dread. But what I dread is the very thing that stand between me and the audacity of my dreams and hopes.

I choose to be audacious. I will face my fears. I will dive into what I dread.

Your sanity for my vote

Dear friends, family, media and politicians, etc,

Please dont try to trade your sanity for my vote. I care about you all enough to say that its simply not worth your time or effort.


hindsight: the direction your buttocks face

An open letter to myself.

In the wake of an incomprehensibly massive disaster aptly or inaptly named Sandy, the coming days will be visited by journalistic, personal and authoritative hindsight to see what could have, should have, needed to be done. Sadly though, hindsight is just that, hindsight. Looking in the direction your buttocks face. What a view.

They say “hindsight is 20/20”. And this is very true. Its easy to rely on hindsight- to look back on what you just done or whats just happened and go “yeah… i should have done this instead of that” or “you know, that was not the best decision after all…” etc. But sadly, its impossible to walk backwards for too long before falling over.

You were designed to walk forward. To look forward. To take on whatever is ahead. To go. To do. To love. To be. And so, you get in your own way by constantly trying to do move ahead while still relying on hindsight to look back at what you should have done – and this way of living surely cant be sustainable.

This act of keeping your hindsight clear, focused in 20/20 and trying to also focus of whats ahead of you is not working. WHAT IF YOU GAVE UP ON RELYING ON HINDSIGHT AND MADE DECISIONS RIGHT NOW THAT YOU WILL HAVE NO REASON TO REGRET WHEN THEY PASS INTO HISTORY?

Their are thousands of stories coming out of the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy where thousands of people performed thousands of acts of selflessness. These people will never need to rely hindsight to keep on living. They know that they are doing right now is right and good and decent. There are no regrets that come with doing that.

Hindsight is real. Its fraught with guilt and dispair. Its the ultimate speed bump on your road to doing more and being more.

Choose to make decisions today, right now, in this moment that will never rely on hindsight. FORGET WHAT IS BEHIND. LOOK FORWARD.